Holy moly, I’ve gone and done it. As of today, Lara Eve Designs is an official entity with a web address, a permit and license or two, and a sole proprietor. Gulp. *Me*.
I feel like the universe is trying to tell me something: today I nearly killed a dog, saw an actual dead human being, and gave birth to a long awaited dream of taking my art out into the world. Inside my head is a litany that kind of sounds like this: “Yippee, I have a seller’s permit DEAD BODY I can’t wait to buy things wholesale DEAD BODY wow, all this tax stuff is seriously confusing DEAD BODY I can’t believe this is all finally happening DEAD BODY.” You get the idea.
I don’t know what I’m supposed to take from all this…balance? Life out of death? Beginnings and endings? Yes. I think so. All those. I’ve had loved ones die; I’ve also given birth (ask me sometime about the birth of my my son, affectionately known as Gigantor). I know that both of those processes are messy, terrifying, God-awful painful, and hold moments of breathtaking beauty.
So. To try and make sense of this crazy, tumultuous day, I have decided the following:
- Today marks the death of my fears and doubts about putting my heart and soul out for everyone to see.
- Today marks the birth of the next, really cool chapter of my life.
I think I better hold on tight to something.